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Thursday, November 6, 2014

In Loving Memory

I remember the first time that I met her. I was nervous, as most people are to meet the parents of the one they love. I had flown to Pennyslavnia for the first time with your Dad and was terrified they'd think I was lame, annoying, or a number of other negative thoughts that go through one's mind in these situations.

She answered the door and immediately gave me a hug and offered me a cup of coffee. I could tell she was funny off the bat and spunky as all get out. We were bound to get along. I had met the perfect future mother in law for me. Anyone who would sit around and drink coffee with me all day was a winner in my book. No agenda or plans. We'd just sit around chit chat and keep on brewing pots of coffee.

But you'll never know her. Not like that. You'll hear stories about her and hear us reference her in conversation but you'll never KNOW her. That makes us terribly sad. When you both do something cute or funny we've thought how much we wish she could be around to see it or how we'd love to give her a call to share it with her. I remember watching her play with your cousin and it makes my heart hurt that you won't see how she used to get down on the floor and play! Really play! I knew her for a short time in the grand scheme of things as she became ill with cancer soon after we became engaged and we lived in California at the time. We flew back often to see her. She fought long and hard her battle. Aiden, you got to meet her when you were a tiny baby. That moment is etched in my mind and precious. Piper, you carry her middle name and a piece of her always. Be proud of that. I know she must have felt awful so much of the time but when we were around she rarely showed it. Instead, she'd insist we get crabs, have some beer and have the entire family over. I'm fairly certain she was always the life of the party as we always had a great time and laughed a lot!

It's been 5 years since she passed away. We sprinkled her ashes at the beach in Rehobeth and every summer we go pay our respects to her. I hope you both keep that tradition alive as it's one of the most important things you can do. Keep traditions alive. It's how people live on in your heart. You may not have met her but you have some of her inside of you. She's your family. Your blood. You inherit things from people and I really hope that you both have picked up her fun loving spirit. One day, when you're old enough and are cracking crabs, drinking a beer. walking the beach or enjoying endless pots of coffee think of your Mimi. And raise a glass to her.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

When Life hands you a minivan!

            
A spooky thing happened last week other than Halloween around here. Aiden had a wonderful Halloween as all kids did and now I have to stare at a bucket overflowing with candy everyday. It's not helping me in my "get my bod back" efforts at all. Damn you Snickers! DAMN YOU! But that is not the spookiness I speak of...this last weekend I took another step towards understanding what parenthood and adulthood is all about. To you, this may seem silly or ridiculous. You may even roll your eyes but to me it signifies me releasing any selfish tendencies I've held on to over the last five years. We bought a minivan.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

The Vanishing Post....

Picture is 100% unrelated to this post. She just is so stinkin' cute.
                    
I wrote a post yesterday and then it disappeared. It didn't get saved. Vanished! I was so bummed but it was just that kind of day. I've been trying to be consistent with things too so I was determined to post something. Of course by the time this all went down the baby needed to be fed, brother picked up and then any time for myself was out the door until 9p at which point I was ready for bed. It's okay though. I realize I needed to sit on those thoughts anyway before sending them out into the universe. Instead, here are some things that have me pumped up lately.
 
TINY a story about living small: You may or may not recall a post I did about Tiny Houses and my obsession with the notion of having one. And I WILL HAVE ONE SOME DAY! This documentary is on Netflix and is really quite enjoyable if you also love the Tiny movement. Nothing makes you appreciate the space you have like seeing people living in 200 square feet. ;)
 
The Mountains are Calling: ...and I'm a gonna go! It's about that time of year when we head to the mountains for a weekend of stunner views, relaxation and spending time with our dear friends. I am SO EXCITED!! Light the fire pit, open a bottle of red and enjoy the peace that comes with being high above the clouds. Hiawassee here I come!
 
Halloween: Halloween is just two sleeps away (we do things by sleeps here..anyone else?). I read this post this morning and was rolling with laughter because it is beyond true. I'm going to try and chill and have a good old fashioned Halloween. I know I have been that modern mom and it makes me ill. I partially blame the ridiculousness of costumes on catalogues like "Chasing Fireflies" that magically appear at my house. Aiden REALLY wanted a snake costume that was $98!!!! With shipping that is OVER $100 for a HALLOWEEN COSTUME! Not on my watch.
 
 
 
 
 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

The World is Your Oyster

"The World is Your Oyster". "Climb Every Mountain" "Follow that Dream". These are the words that adorn the walls of my sweet 8 week old daughter's room and I hope she heeds that advice one day. It wasn't until the other day though that I really REALLY took the time to consider that they are words of encouragement not just for her but for me. For all of us. After all, I bought them for a reason right? I sit there rocking her in the glider gazing at the words. Was I sending myself a message and hadn't realized it?

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Weekend Recap


Wow! What a great Fall weekend. The weather in Georgia was spectacular! It was the sunny, keep the windows open at night and snuggle up kind of weather. It was scrumptious.

This week most importantly kicked off with little Piper turning 2 months old. I've made it TWO MONTHS and I am in intact! WOOHOO. Pop the cork and pat me on the back. ;)
                


Saturday morning I headed over to my friend, Tin Can Cozy's for PJ's, Coffee and Bagels. A group of ladies gathered around the fire pit, drank coffee, relaxed and talked about anything and everything for a couple of hours. I have become more of a morning person as I get older but having a newborn has lead to a few 'haggard' mornings if you will... and that's putting it kindly. With that in mind, I wasn't sure how I felt about being chatty early on in the morning but it turned out to be a wonderful way to kick off a Saturday. I left feeling refreshed and highly over caffeinated.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Well hello there! I'm back...I think.



                 
Hey there! What can I say? I haven't blogged since August 8th and so much has happened since then I don't even know where to begin this post. The last two months have been blurry with a whole mix of different emotions flying around and frankly flew by pretty fast.

Let me bring you up to speed to the tune of some bullet points.

- August 18th: Gave birth to a gorgeous little girl that we have named Piper Ann. She was 7lbs and 5 oz and looks identical to her brother. I have logged on to my blog and thought about writing a post a handful of times but I have just been consumed in my own little world and you know what? I decided that was a good thing; to focus on getting through some challenging sleepless nights, snuggling during the day and work on being a great mother of two which it turns out is kind of hard some days.  Also, some people can function well on little sleep but I am not one of those people. I become forgetful and my mind is in a constant blur..like a bad hangover. Writing was NOT happening. Piper is now 7 weeks old and is starting to get into her groove though. We all are I think. Thank goodness!!
              
              
              

- Monday, September 15th: I lost my Mamaw. Here's the thing. I have had ALL of my grandparents in my life up until this day. I'm in my mid-30's and have had the joy of still conversing and knowing and having my grandparents around to meet my children and know me in my adult years. Blessed doesn't cut it but I am. My Mamaw, Corine, lived a very long and very great life which gives me great peace. I really hope I'm around that long for my family. My hormones were really throwing me off during this time because it's really hard to be sad when you're holding a new life in your hands. My heart would ache for the loss and then feel joy for what I've gained and it was all just so much to handle. I also was having a hard time with the timing. You see, when Aiden was born we lost my Mother In Law shortly after so this is now twice we've dealt with loss after the birth of a child. It rocks you. I saved most of my tears for late at night when I was looking at Piper hoping that her and Aiden will have grandparents for as long as I have. It's been a month since she passed and it just doesn't seem right.
    

September 25th:  Happy times again! Aiden turned 5 years old and I just CAN'T BELIEVE IT! Even now, it feels so strange. Just yesterday (everyone says that...annoying alert) he was a baby. No. Really. He was. He looked just like Piper does right now except he wasn't wearing pink and headbands. It sometimes feels like I turn around and he has gotten taller, smarter, says something way too mature.. more 'big boy' and it just happened out of nowhere. He has girls chasing him already. What the what?  Even at five though he has still managed to stay so sweet, kind and sensitive. Still calls me Mama. I hope he stays that way for a lifetime and always calls me Mama always. Am I going to wake up and my kids are going to be teens giving me grief? God I hope not. But if it's true that what goes around...I'm in for a wake up call! Sorry Mom and Dad! Yikes! Must focus and relish in this 'tiny time' while I can.
       
        
         

September 27th: My Mom went back home... for good. She had been here with me right before and after Piper was born, spent time in Alabama with my Mamaw, came back to Georgia, back to Alabama, etc..you get the drift. Lucky for me she came back for Aiden's birthday and then that was really it. It was super sad because having her here (and a slew of other family visitors over the course of these two months) made me realize that while we love our life here (and we do...so much) we miss out on the Village sometimes. It does take a village too and I see that very clearly now. We both (Chad and I) have large families who are fantastic and awesome and we aren't near any of them. However, I am glad to be about 4 hours from many of my relatives. That's something. Better than when we lived in Cali. Some days it is the pits to be away and I remember feeling the same way when Aiden was a baby. Extra hands would be nice right about now but I am thankful that we are travel-minded folks...we love taking our kids anywhere so I know I'll always make a point to see our families.
     

       

October 15th: Baby girl is almost TWO MONTHS OLD already.The air is turning cooler. Leaves are starting to Fall. I got to bust out a puffy vest and sit by a fire...and now I can drink a few good glasses of wine. All is right in the world as my favorite season ushers in once again. Hikes are being taken and having a baby in tow makes it even a little more magical. The calendar is filling up with fun 'fall' weekends in the mountains, heading home to see our families and see some friends, Halloween costumes have been purchased, the pumpkin patch has been visited and life is starting to show a glimpse of normal again. It feels like the perfect time to start blogging again.

Side note: The picture below of Piper...I can't even handle! Baby cheeks, baby smiles, baby yawns, pudgy legs...it's like Thanksgiving dinner everyday. She's delicious!
             
  
      

I look forward to writing again and documenting everything. I see now what this blog could be for me...that one day my kids and grandkids can log on and read about our life, about me, and get to know the me I am today! When my Mamaw passed I heard stories about her when she was younger, about her siblings, even stories from just when I was younger. I  learned things I didn't know about her. It made me think that this will one day be amazing because we have so much to give to our kids and stories to share...hopefully this will help tell mine!

Happy Thursday friends and for those who read thanks for the patience!

Friday, August 8, 2014

Sleep makes everything better!

             
Oh my gosh! My rant yesterday was real and truthful and I still want to run many people off the road but can I just say it's AMAZING how I feel totally different today because I had a great night's sleep?? That either means I'm going to be a beast to be around when this baby is born or I'm bipolar. I'm not sure. LOL! It doesn't matter. Yesterday I was all angst and 90's alternative and today I'm Pharrell's "Happy". Blame it on the baby I guess.
              

Either way, today I am not feeling so angry with the world and wanting to flee suburbia...just yet anyways. This morning we grabbed a quick (short) hike with the dog and doing something active usually starts the day off on the right foot for me. Looking forward to a weekend of 'nesting' and getting ready for the arrival of Super Nana on Monday who is coming to help us out. Thank goodness!

Tonight it's Family Game Night as requested by Aiden so we'll be busting out Candy Land and Crazy 8's.

I wanted to also share this article that one of my besties sent me a week or so ago and I have gone back and read it a couple of times. Maybe it's what you're looking for today. I know it makes me want to start choosing MUST over SHOULD every day of the week. Check it out here.

Until next time....have a great weekend!